You asked for space, so I gave you space.
Then you asked for me, so I gave you me.
When I asked for a little bit of you back, you made a joke.
On the outside I laughed, but on the inside I cried.
My feelings have always been an inconvenience to you, so I lied.
I said maybe now isn’t the right time.
How can you break up with a person who won’t even admit that you are dating?
How are you so good at making me feel like everything’s my fault?
How can you tell me you love me just to tell me that you don’t?
How can you tell me you want me just to prove that you don’t?
How can you face me after you wrongfully blame me?
You can’t.
So you don’t.
Cause you would have to face yourself and you won’t.
So it’s absence and silence.
It’s abandonment and it’s cruel.
So yeah, I’m angry.
And yeah, I’m really fucking sad.
That my best friend in the entire world could treat me like that.
Now I’m here.
Spending most days wanting to disappear.
Missing you, hating you, loving you.
Afraid to let go but ready to be done.
You’ve made a mess of me, I’m completely undone.
I just want to love you forever.
No matter what happens, I’ll love you forever.
Oasis Poetry 