Love Exists

My heart is sad we couldn’t overcome

Every day I carry that sadness, but it has gotten less heavy

And the truth is, I am happier now 

And I think you would say the same 

And I’m so much better now 

And that’s because of you.

The other day I was writing a poem, and somehow it turned into a letter to you

I almost even paid to have it delivered to you

It wasn’t anything more than just closing thoughts to this book of us.

See what I don’t think you ever understood about me is that I completely understand how silence is protection 

But I also understand how silence is lonely 

And that’s why I became so self expressive 

Not because it was easy or because I was good at it 

And definitely not because I wasn’t afraid

It is because of my fear that I try to share my inner self with the world, whether that be another person or words on the internet 

And I’m still scared every single time I do it 

But even when I do it wrong and even when I do it messy, I’m always grateful I did

Because it means I really cared and I chose vulnerability and bravery to share myself out loud 

Even when I lose, I have never regretted it yet.

So yeah…I’m good and I hope you are too.

I stopped begging God to help me stop missing you 

and I finally accepted that I will always miss you

but now every time I do, I use it as a reminder that love exists.